27_Jan_2017 morning

I went to sleep at 10 PM woke up at 12 night, couldnt sleep so started reading madhu brothers book. finished reading at 2.30 and then was chatting for half hour and then went to sleep.

astral - i think - maybe not.. woke up, came downstairs , rathi was there, told her u have to see this, if u can see me now, u must believe its astral, i tell her to follow me to upstairs and see my body lying down. she comes and sees my body and says yes u r out of ur body. now am awake out my body but dont know wat to do... i ask her to pinch me to see if i feel sensation, i dont... i tell her its astral body maybe thts why i dont feel pinch. but now its boring,  i look at swamis pic , now what to do. should i fly or go somewhere, whats the use its boring to do it, dont achieve anything anyway so i decide to jus stay there.. am not afraid but jus plain bored, so i decide to wake up in my body. i try hard to wake up, trying to shout and move my body, i succeed and i open my eyes am inside my body, but i see rathi sleeping shes not awake.. so although the me part waking up and loitering is true, the conversation was all fake, maybe it was just a dream... only swami can confirm which he wont so i let it be.

14-jan-2017
thai masam first day, makar sankranthi

maybe it was midnight or too early morning i dont remember

i had a dream before that where it was like a ghost movie where dinesh and i take a train which is supposed to be a ghost destination train and it takes whirlwind route, scary,... and takes me to scary places.. its ok i am little scared but mostly i know itslike a move thing
wake up and goto sleeo... playing with krishna as i say bye to him climbing on a train... i miss the train but somehow push krishna into the train and i  am outside... i run to catch the train, my dad is watching i tell him iwil take a car or auto and catch the train in next station, krishna is there with other relatives though inside train, hopefully he climbed onto the train cause i only helped him climb but not sure if he went inside the trian.. woke up its a dream, i was thinking train is spiritual path, did i miss the train, why did i have to get down the train and play with krishna. went back to sleep thinking that...

astral.. woke up in dream and was flying...  had wings and flying flying , it was like road4 way to office.. trying to fly longer but ended up flying higher , not much control but it was fun to do astral after long time... open my heart and get ready to fly out , heart chakra is ready but then i realize whats the point jus sit there and enjoy, there is nothing there or here, jus sit quiet and enjoy.. its fun... i go back to dream i think at this point maybe still in astral ..i dont know.. i have a call with mohanj its very nice , so i tell him mohanji my swami has told me no meditation just go and serve people thts enough.. he doesnt say anything..i ask him sokmething else he is silent, something else again i talk trying to make him reply to me, he still remains silent.. i am little aware now he wants me to be silent so i am jus quiet.... am sleeping in my bedroom in danville and now i walk to parents bedroom (bigger one) and I see kuppu paati, annapoorni chithi (sushmitas mom), megha and ravi anna (vani akka husband) sitting with krishna.. no one sees me first, i push krishna in the cheeks and only he sees me , they are all helping in packing some luggage and kuppu mami leaves the room for some work.. i tell megha quick take 200rs and put it in kuppu mamis purse, if we give in her hand she wont take, jus put it in her purse... i was told to do so, i dont know who i think its swami... then kuppu mami is with other pattis in the toy room opposite to bedroom so I get a message and i tell megha, give dhahi shakkar, ask kuppu mami to eat curd and sugar , god knows why...i tell to megha... then i realize i am behind time meaning i am in a moment that happened one month ago, so i actually travelled to past, so its a dream not astral (maybe its astral its weird cant explain, as i dont understand) but then i am overwhelmed and thank mohanji and  ask him please involve me in such esoteric missions that keeps me pushing more into spirituality also, not for ego rush but its what we want to be connected...i tell mohanji when are u coming to california meaning visiting our home.. he suddenly swoops down from somehwere and right there he is, and is holding my hand.. he pulls me and makes me sit outside the three doors and i am crying i am in tears seeing his love and his presence right there cause i called him.. he asked me to be quiet and puts his finger on my forehead and i remain silent,... i am crying i am sitting in front of him holding his feet and he is pressing his finger on my forehead ajna chakra.. i want to say something but remain silent .. then he presses my right nostril and i breathe fully through my left nostril and then he presses my left nostrsil and i breathe thru my right nostril... he little bit shakes to make me breathe in one nostril like ...
instantly  woke up to see time as 6.33 AM but clock is 15+ mins fast so must have been 6.15 or so..

did mohanji give me initiation by touching my ajna chakra , did he want me to do pranayama ? or he made me do pranayama so what transpired i dont know.. did he take away something from me cause i told him swami doesnt want me to meditate but only serve ?? i am glad even if he took anything from me or gave me anything, according to me both are same... god gives and takes, both are for our highest good..
2-3months ago when i went to mohanji meditation for the first time he gave me shakthipath.. i know it cause i went numb and so much energy came in that cupertino house ...i was jus stilled in silence with mucuh energy pouring into me when that akka put her hand over my head... so maybe he gave me shakthipath then, and he took away shakthipath from me now, or he gave me more energy by pressing his finger on my forehead, it could mean anything, but either ways i am happy that it was a beautiful dream and i had a blessed holy person interact with me ... it would have been nice if i understand whats going on :) but its always the case where seldom we know whats happening...

morning i wake up call paatti in saidapet and casually ask her about kuppu mami, and i tell her to call her and paatti says they are in hospital as revathi (daughter in law) is not well.. so i tell her give dhahi shakkar (curd and sugar) , paatti says should revathi have, i tell ask both of them to have, but dont ask me anymore questions... i have to ask mom to give them 200rs dont know when the time will come for that, they will look suspicioulsy at me so i have reserved that for now.. will communicate later