Early this morning around 4AM, I started to fly again. I was standing in the 3rd floor, in anand apartments in srinagar colony jus standing by the balcony feeling bored and sad that am not doing anything useful and life is boring I am not able to control my mind, something boring thoughts and not-so-positive-about-life outlook, I suddenly realize I am awake its lucid dreaming again. I straight go to swami, hes just sitting, maybe not swami willed dream so maybe am making up but I just straight go to him, spend sometime there. In the discussion I am made aware that yes its true as long as you are aware thats all that matters, nothing else matters, everything else that we call as good or bad is only to bring about awareness, anything that brings us towards awareness is a good deed, and its indeed good karma activities, selfless activities, anything that binds us also takes away from that awareness because of our body-mind attachment. As we term certain activities as "sin" they are nothing but that which takes us away from awareness. Being disembodied is the best freedom anyone can have. I wake up and look at the clock its 4AM I hate to be back in the body, I want to sit up and meditate but lazy as I am and the cold winter that is outside I decide to sleep and not meditate.
Wednesday, December 16, 2015
Monday, December 14, 2015
Dec - 5-2015
This morning I was driving a big bus and halted in some ashram where I have a home , behind me a party of cars stop. Suddenly I realize it's swamis car and Swami is inspecting something behind the bus I drove and walking (I see swami physically), and I also see brother madhu who comes to me in a hurry and said he needs a hall where 200 people can sit where to find one, I tell him in this ashram there is such a hall if u want I can talk to authorities and arrange , then Madhu says swami wants a home to stay for the night as part of the touring journey I was so thrilled because in that part of ashram no one knows swami so I tell Madhu please use my home I will set up everything swami needs its not a big n beautiful home it's a small 2 bedroom home and I will give the big bedroom and arrange it such a way that it is fit for swami - as I was explaining this to Madhu I am praying within me "say yes say yes say yes" he says I will check with swami and goes, I look behind the entourage of cars just whisk away without stopping I get a little sad thinking they are not going to use the hall or even my home for rest otherwise they would have stopped , but little glad that Atleast they came and asked me ...
I drive my car going downhill, windy roads, suddenly lose control of the driving. Car is crowded with lot of sponge material covering my eyes and scared that I am going to hit and get into an accident. The usual nonchalant self that I am I decide to get hit and brace for it. afterall its just a small incident and car will be totalled but thts not my end. Then suddenly I think i am going to downhill which means its not merely an accident and I will be thrown over and thts a little hard to digest so I throw the white sponge material away and start focusing on driving. The white spong was so much in the car tht it was casting a shadow between my vision and the road, so I throw it away and focus on driving, suddenly my car becomes a rickety scooter more like a tvs50 vehicle and I apply brakes, control the moment with my legs and come to a halt just before I am overthrown from tht mountain. I realize there was another elderly couple who had stopped their car for they got into some accident due to damaged roads. I tell them to go to that ashram from where I am coming, give them the address, I remember them saying they are from there , after visiting the same place they are now going down the mountain. I notice a young girl ordinary looking lean , and brown skinned like most of the south indians, probably in her late teens or early twenties, who I presume is their daughter, shes not wearing any necklace or bangles or any such ornaments, rather she looked like a sadhaka, she was wearing only a rudraksha and looked very simple. I bid them good bye and am off my way and my dream ends.
couple of weeks ago dream - I see a wombat sitting outside our home, pretty big sized and its just lazy and lying down, everyone is scared but I go and pet it, its like a kitten soft and absolutely allowing me to pet it. God knows why I dream of wombats :) some random animal which many people dont even know exists. I also dint know until i woke up and remember its a wombat.
This morning I was driving a big bus and halted in some ashram where I have a home , behind me a party of cars stop. Suddenly I realize it's swamis car and Swami is inspecting something behind the bus I drove and walking (I see swami physically), and I also see brother madhu who comes to me in a hurry and said he needs a hall where 200 people can sit where to find one, I tell him in this ashram there is such a hall if u want I can talk to authorities and arrange , then Madhu says swami wants a home to stay for the night as part of the touring journey I was so thrilled because in that part of ashram no one knows swami so I tell Madhu please use my home I will set up everything swami needs its not a big n beautiful home it's a small 2 bedroom home and I will give the big bedroom and arrange it such a way that it is fit for swami - as I was explaining this to Madhu I am praying within me "say yes say yes say yes" he says I will check with swami and goes, I look behind the entourage of cars just whisk away without stopping I get a little sad thinking they are not going to use the hall or even my home for rest otherwise they would have stopped , but little glad that Atleast they came and asked me ...
I drive my car going downhill, windy roads, suddenly lose control of the driving. Car is crowded with lot of sponge material covering my eyes and scared that I am going to hit and get into an accident. The usual nonchalant self that I am I decide to get hit and brace for it. afterall its just a small incident and car will be totalled but thts not my end. Then suddenly I think i am going to downhill which means its not merely an accident and I will be thrown over and thts a little hard to digest so I throw the white sponge material away and start focusing on driving. The white spong was so much in the car tht it was casting a shadow between my vision and the road, so I throw it away and focus on driving, suddenly my car becomes a rickety scooter more like a tvs50 vehicle and I apply brakes, control the moment with my legs and come to a halt just before I am overthrown from tht mountain. I realize there was another elderly couple who had stopped their car for they got into some accident due to damaged roads. I tell them to go to that ashram from where I am coming, give them the address, I remember them saying they are from there , after visiting the same place they are now going down the mountain. I notice a young girl ordinary looking lean , and brown skinned like most of the south indians, probably in her late teens or early twenties, who I presume is their daughter, shes not wearing any necklace or bangles or any such ornaments, rather she looked like a sadhaka, she was wearing only a rudraksha and looked very simple. I bid them good bye and am off my way and my dream ends.
couple of weeks ago dream - I see a wombat sitting outside our home, pretty big sized and its just lazy and lying down, everyone is scared but I go and pet it, its like a kitten soft and absolutely allowing me to pet it. God knows why I dream of wombats :) some random animal which many people dont even know exists. I also dint know until i woke up and remember its a wombat.
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