Jan-9th morning could be around 5AM dream.
I was in standing outside my office, i saw swami there walking. I was like why is he here suddenly i am thrilled but not devotional but more like excited, i see lot of people lined up and crowded. swami is walking between like darshan times and i am crowd controlling. swami is standing and talking to some devotee addresses them and moves forward, several devotees talk to swami. Since this is in the 4th dimension I can feel swami talking to them with full faith i know it but at the sametime hes least attached to the person when he moves away. when he was near and trying to sovle the problem he is emotional, applying, completely involved in answering questions and guiding but the moment he steps away to walk he has forgotten that problem and that person. That is detachment. since whoever stops swami and asks questions i thought i wil also stop him, from behind i am folowing and crowd controlling so i call out to swami, swami first ignores me and then finally looks sternly at me, as if telling me this is not the place or time to ask questions. I get the hint i dont trouble him anymore. Now i dont have any questions to ask cause i know swami is only answering other poeple. My mind is more silent now, i start watching swami more closely , apart from the detachment lesson there was something else that was happening. Whatever swami was trying to say people are not ready to listen. they have their own agenda, their own lessons, their own issues, some are crying some are craving, they are not in a state to understand what swami has come to say or what swami had to come to give. because of them putting a limit on this swami is not able to show his glory so they are missing out on this. after walking sometime swami is tired so he goes into a room i follow him and he lies down to sleep and immdtly starts snoring. I am thinking swami is a "cheater" "thief" how sulkily hes pretending to sleep, cause otherwise people wont go. so i lock the door and tell people inside the room to just leave immdtly so swami can take rest. eveyrone is gone its only me and swami in the room as i lock i look outside the room i realize there is absolutely no difference between me and others standing outside but the only reason am inside is because am not bothering him with "my"problems. The more problems I share the less he listens to me because i am putting a limit on what he has come to give. Now that i dont bug him hes keeping me with him in his infinite grace i am even sharing the room with him. When i say "i dont bug him" what i mean is i dont have external worldly desires (at that moment) or issues of the mind. Atleast at that moment he made me like tht to teach me a lesson. I am stil thinking swami is such a cheat but how beautifuly he cheats people so he brings them peace and joy , hes not least bit angry that they are not listening to his atma vichara discussions but at the same time he patiently waits for them to forget their worldy confusions and surrender. Yet, hes teaching them in a fashion that is suited only for them. Then while snoring his hand comes out and signals me to lie down and sleep. I realize i am tired even thogh this is one moment of my life where i am alone with swami i cannot ask anthing cause if i ask then i wil be thrown out of the room too cause the reason am here is becauyse of the silencing of the mind. If i ask him anything what does it mean, i let the mind ask, i bring focus to the mind so i decide to lie down and sleep. Suddenly after soooo much i become deeply emoitnal and devotional that i am alone with the lord of the universe sleeping, i finally pray to him cupping my 2 hands i realize this is surreal this cannot happen i am in the 4th dimension i knew it this is all his play. so i wake up in 4th dimension and i start travelling. Then i tell myself what is the need to travel when the lord is right here wtih me so i stop flying out of the body and stay with him. i do have all the signals telling me i am awake, my body undergoes an earthquake experience every cell is vibrating i have woken up in the next plane but i am not doing anything to take advantage of it cause i just want to be with swami. i wake up into the physical world and open my eyes and dreams over, the 4th plane is over too.
I was in standing outside my office, i saw swami there walking. I was like why is he here suddenly i am thrilled but not devotional but more like excited, i see lot of people lined up and crowded. swami is walking between like darshan times and i am crowd controlling. swami is standing and talking to some devotee addresses them and moves forward, several devotees talk to swami. Since this is in the 4th dimension I can feel swami talking to them with full faith i know it but at the sametime hes least attached to the person when he moves away. when he was near and trying to sovle the problem he is emotional, applying, completely involved in answering questions and guiding but the moment he steps away to walk he has forgotten that problem and that person. That is detachment. since whoever stops swami and asks questions i thought i wil also stop him, from behind i am folowing and crowd controlling so i call out to swami, swami first ignores me and then finally looks sternly at me, as if telling me this is not the place or time to ask questions. I get the hint i dont trouble him anymore. Now i dont have any questions to ask cause i know swami is only answering other poeple. My mind is more silent now, i start watching swami more closely , apart from the detachment lesson there was something else that was happening. Whatever swami was trying to say people are not ready to listen. they have their own agenda, their own lessons, their own issues, some are crying some are craving, they are not in a state to understand what swami has come to say or what swami had to come to give. because of them putting a limit on this swami is not able to show his glory so they are missing out on this. after walking sometime swami is tired so he goes into a room i follow him and he lies down to sleep and immdtly starts snoring. I am thinking swami is a "cheater" "thief" how sulkily hes pretending to sleep, cause otherwise people wont go. so i lock the door and tell people inside the room to just leave immdtly so swami can take rest. eveyrone is gone its only me and swami in the room as i lock i look outside the room i realize there is absolutely no difference between me and others standing outside but the only reason am inside is because am not bothering him with "my"problems. The more problems I share the less he listens to me because i am putting a limit on what he has come to give. Now that i dont bug him hes keeping me with him in his infinite grace i am even sharing the room with him. When i say "i dont bug him" what i mean is i dont have external worldly desires (at that moment) or issues of the mind. Atleast at that moment he made me like tht to teach me a lesson. I am stil thinking swami is such a cheat but how beautifuly he cheats people so he brings them peace and joy , hes not least bit angry that they are not listening to his atma vichara discussions but at the same time he patiently waits for them to forget their worldy confusions and surrender. Yet, hes teaching them in a fashion that is suited only for them. Then while snoring his hand comes out and signals me to lie down and sleep. I realize i am tired even thogh this is one moment of my life where i am alone with swami i cannot ask anthing cause if i ask then i wil be thrown out of the room too cause the reason am here is becauyse of the silencing of the mind. If i ask him anything what does it mean, i let the mind ask, i bring focus to the mind so i decide to lie down and sleep. Suddenly after soooo much i become deeply emoitnal and devotional that i am alone with the lord of the universe sleeping, i finally pray to him cupping my 2 hands i realize this is surreal this cannot happen i am in the 4th dimension i knew it this is all his play. so i wake up in 4th dimension and i start travelling. Then i tell myself what is the need to travel when the lord is right here wtih me so i stop flying out of the body and stay with him. i do have all the signals telling me i am awake, my body undergoes an earthquake experience every cell is vibrating i have woken up in the next plane but i am not doing anything to take advantage of it cause i just want to be with swami. i wake up into the physical world and open my eyes and dreams over, the 4th plane is over too.
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